My Heart is Crying!
Well, these past few days is not just ordinary working days. There are a lot of times as well when I have to fight over of these stupid thoughts that have been bothering me again. My heart is actually crying out for the same issue. Am I too aggressive? Am I too "showy" of my feelings for you? Are you really that busy that you could hardly feel my presence? Am I just over reacting? Am I just paranoid? Maybe yes, and maybe no. I have only one thing for sure, I damn missed you.
At this very moment, here in front of the monitor…writing this post…listening to MYMP’s revival : Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now… is the emotional grace. I wouldn’t say that tears are overflowing but they don’t just stop and continues to tear my eyes. My heart beats a lot faster thinking that I might be the only left holding on for something when it seems that there’s really no something to hold on. I just can’t keep this all by myself so let me just use this blog to air out everything, hoping that somehow it would ease the pain. I don’t intentionally boost myself here but I really do excel in school and yet at this moment is a very weak ME,when all I can do is cry and let this blog listen to my crying heart. Why do I have to feel all these stuff. Whew, this sucks! Why can’t I just be happy? You know who you are. Can’t you just spare me a little of your time? I really hate this feeling. Why can’t people just love,be loved and be happy? Why do I have to cry over and over again? I damned missed you. Could anyone help me get out of this hell? I mean of this ‘F’ feeling.?
may i know your email add pls?
Comment by karen — June 15, 2007 @ 9:35 pm
hi, Karen..
May I know who’s Karen is this please?
Comment by grace — June 16, 2007 @ 2:05 pm
What happened dear? Are you okay now?
Comment by Karen — June 24, 2007 @ 11:55 am