Few weeks ago….I had all these —–
Trials:
1. I lost my cellphone which I bought from my salary the last time I had my job last summer. That ka board mate really sucks!!! uhmmm…I leave it all to God nalang. I have no choice.
2. I have no time to cherish with that someone I love. We lost a very essential component to sustain our relationship which is proper communication…That’s why even a small matter it grew into a conflict..It was indeed a conflict-settled situation for quite a long time…roughly a month, yeah, maybe it was for a month..That’s how long the duration was.
3. I failed to bring gold in the event(Latin Dance) I joined during Intramurals…I did my best but my best wasn’t good enough…(’Hahaha…lyrics na ni duh…’)…I really failed…our tandem with James-IT2 doesn’t work…Well, I knew deep inside my heart I did everything to win…I set aside all the fear and shame it may brought me. I even did not listen to my partner’s(my palaluv) opinion…Honestly, he really doesn’t wanted me to join that event…I wished I have listened to him or I wish I should have found a dancing partner not a ‘DI’ as what Kuya Rodel, IT-Folkdance trainor have said…Well, that’s life…I wouldn’t console my self with such message as ‘better luck next time’…because there will be no more next time…Never again…
It really sucks!!!…That Intramurals consume a lot of my energy being the Program Officer in charge for Literary, Musical, Mr. and Ms. Intramurals and Dancesports events…well, that’s why I’m into this kind of responsibilty…
4. My project….I have done nothing progressive…as in….
5. I feel like I lose someone so dear and important to me…I don’t know what’s with her…I really have no idea what’s the matter and why is she acting that weird these days…until now…I don’t know…I’ve learned from someone that she felt like interfered by me… I hope I could be able to talk to her sincerely and no ‘plastikan’ at all…I never intend to make her feel that but I think it’s her ego that boosted much that’s why she felt like being interfered…It’s all because of this damn project…I hope she could act professionally and not to put our tasks in personal matters…Instead of going away from work, why not help me, and share her great brain and skills for our group…I knew the moment you’ll read this, I know you’ll realize who am I referring to. But I never wished to lose you—-…I hope you’ll realized that too…
Victories:
1. For such a long time, at last we, with (my partner in life), has come back being stable after our Intramurals…He really changed…He cared for me a lot more compared before….at last I feel the effort he wanted me to stay in his life…The last time we talked, I was surprised of everything he said…I just hope those were not bluffs…And I believe it was the truth…
2. And above all, the most important victory I had is to be with God again…I have been lost for those past few weeks…I felt very down and very unhappy…But then, I’m with Him again…He made me realized that even at my down times I could feel a lot more of His presence…I thank Him that I survived those trials…I’m just waiting for one of those trials to be solved which until now is a big question…—"Am still a part of you?—Am I still your ———-???"….I hope so…
Well, ciao for now guys!!! Have a blessed day everyone!
ER INGGO
